The "bechira" challenge of default life
I immediately realize that my actual experience of Tov is contrary to that indicated by Brayshees. As I zoom in toward My Yishuv a world of resources awaiting my design and soevereignty - my melacha- to attain reality. Indeed, in my yishuv, it is our divine right to impose our chosen name upon the resources of the world to attain eternity of fame. We wake up in the morning not to seek knowledge, but to “live life”. As I zoom in closer and closer on a typical 7 AM Monday, I see a social world whose potential needs much “tikkun”.
Sensory knowledge approach
For the people I see, waking up in the morning is an ordeal whose major focus is drinking coffee and taking a shower. I see people smacking their snooze buttons, grumbling, whining , protesting the invasion of blissful sleep. In every possible way the comfort of sleep is preserved, blankets are pulled over heads to block light, night and sleep rescued from the onslought of day and work. How easily I can identify, pop into their experience and feel it myself!
In essence "waking up" is a struggle to establish focus of nefesh on whatever ones "day" of production motion, the projecting of nefesh power to change environments that the “day” is going to be about. We resist the work part of day as long as we can, but in the end the survival urge prevails over the urge for pleasure. We rush out of bed "late" yet again. The person transitions into "schedule mode" they must rush to the mission of school or work.
But is work or school a human purpose? Is it a tov consonent with “Va-yar Elokim Ki Tov'? Obviously not. As I see the hordes of newly showered and caffeinated people march, in vast lines of traffic, to work and school, I clearly note that the “day” will be seeking nothing more than kavod- hevel ends meaningful only in a human centered world that contradicts the essential message of “Va-yar Elokim Ki Tov'. I see students exhorted to study to “get ahead” to “get into college” or “to make a name for themselves”. I see workers exhorted by their leaders to focus on the task, team project or corporate vision. The workers and students have been dreading this the entire commute. They plunge into their "work day" nonetheless, cursing out the hated talking heads, teachers managers leaders, even as they somewhat buy into their vision. Why else trudge along, doing the bidding of the task masters? After all is there anything else, any mission other than the life we already live? How easy it is to pop into their experience,feel their anger and despair. They don't realize the choice that is right in front of their noses. This vision they are stuck in make sense only if I limit myself to the zoom dreamed up by talking heads like Heryshef who believe the resources of aretz can be made into an eternal testament to their name. I can choose not to see things this way, to see them instead through the lens of Brayshees. But what is the manner to do this? How do I bring back the cosmic perspective into my morning routine, liberate myself from slavishly implementing the dream of the "stars"?
The Mitzva as a "bechira" instrument
It is from this vantage point that I approach the instruments of hashkama baboker.
סדר התפילה
1 לעולם יהא אדם ירא שמיים בסתר, ומודה על האמת, ודובר אמת בלבבו; ישכים ויאמר, ריבון כל העולמים--לא על צדקותינו אנחנו מפילים תחנונינו לפניך, כי על רחמיך הרבים. מה אנו, מה חיינו, מה חסדנו, מה צדקנו, מה מעשינו, מה נאמר לפניך, ה' אלוהינו. הלוא הגיבורים כאין לפניך, ואנשי השם כלא היו, וחכמים כבלי מדע, ונבונים כבלי השכל. כי כל מעשינו תוהו, וימי חיינו הבל לפניך; כמו שכתוב בדברי קודשך--ומותר האדם מן הבהמה אין, כי הכול הבל.
2 אבל אנחנו עמך, בני בריתך: בני אברהם--אוהבך, שנשבעת לו בהר המורייה; זרע יצחק--עקידך, שנעקד על גבי מזבחך; עדת יעקוב--בנך, בכורך, שמאהבתך שאהבת אותו ושמחתך ששמחת בו, קראת אותו ישראל וישורון.
3 לפיכך אנו חייבין להודות לך, ולשבחך ולפארך, ולרוממך וליתן הודיה ושבח לשמך. חייבין אנו לומר לפניך בכל יום, ערב ובוקר--שמע, ישראל: ה' אלוהינו, ה' אחד. אשרינו, מה טוב חלקנו, מה נעים גורלנו, מה יפה מאוד ירושתנו. אשרינו, שאנו משכימין ומעריבין ואומרין--שמע, ישראל: ה' אלוהינו, ה' אחד.
4 אתה הוא קודם שנברא העולם, ואתה הוא אחר שנברא העולם; אתה הוא בעולם הזה, ואתה הוא לעולם הבא; אתה הוא ראשון, ואתה הוא אחרון. קדש את שמך הגדול והקדוש, בעולמך; ובישועתך, תרים ותגביה קרננו. ברוך מקדש את שמו, ברבים.
1 לעולם יהא אדם ירא שמיים בסתר, ומודה על האמת, ודובר אמת בלבבו; ישכים ויאמר, ריבון כל העולמים--לא על צדקותינו אנחנו מפילים תחנונינו לפניך, כי על רחמיך הרבים. מה אנו, מה חיינו, מה חסדנו, מה צדקנו, מה מעשינו, מה נאמר לפניך, ה' אלוהינו. הלוא הגיבורים כאין לפניך, ואנשי השם כלא היו, וחכמים כבלי מדע, ונבונים כבלי השכל. כי כל מעשינו תוהו, וימי חיינו הבל לפניך; כמו שכתוב בדברי קודשך--ומותר האדם מן הבהמה אין, כי הכול הבל.
2 אבל אנחנו עמך, בני בריתך: בני אברהם--אוהבך, שנשבעת לו בהר המורייה; זרע יצחק--עקידך, שנעקד על גבי מזבחך; עדת יעקוב--בנך, בכורך, שמאהבתך שאהבת אותו ושמחתך ששמחת בו, קראת אותו ישראל וישורון.
3 לפיכך אנו חייבין להודות לך, ולשבחך ולפארך, ולרוממך וליתן הודיה ושבח לשמך. חייבין אנו לומר לפניך בכל יום, ערב ובוקר--שמע, ישראל: ה' אלוהינו, ה' אחד. אשרינו, מה טוב חלקנו, מה נעים גורלנו, מה יפה מאוד ירושתנו. אשרינו, שאנו משכימין ומעריבין ואומרין--שמע, ישראל: ה' אלוהינו, ה' אחד.
4 אתה הוא קודם שנברא העולם, ואתה הוא אחר שנברא העולם; אתה הוא בעולם הזה, ואתה הוא לעולם הבא; אתה הוא ראשון, ואתה הוא אחרון. קדש את שמך הגדול והקדוש, בעולמך; ובישועתך, תרים ותגביה קרננו. ברוך מקדש את שמו, ברבים.
10 comments:
RW,
I apologize for my lazyness in trying to take the next step. However, can you please elaborate how the "Brochos" will then move the person to the cosmic view?
Yay! I'd love to hear personal examples from anyone else who is willing to share.
Here's mine:
My mom asks me to do the dishes. It is Erev Shabbat and I just want to go on the computer and check my email, and then sort of lie around being lazy until Shabbat, but there is a mountain of dishes waiting to be done and getting in the way of Shabbat cooking. I feel a wave of disgruntlement welling up. The wave breaks on my mom, taking the form of some kind of annoying groan and a trudging noise as I drag myself up the stairs and into the kitchen. However, as I start doing the dishes, I experience another feeling. Guilt at grumbling at my mom. Guilt for not being a good daughter and wanting to do the dishes.
Now at this point, I often just wallow in the conflicting feelings of guilt and desire to avoid dishes.
However, at this point, writing this post, feeling my feelings of frustration welling up inside of me, I will try this thought experiment. On my Nefesh screen, I zoom in from the planets rotating in perfect, lawful harmony, to the earth, a beautiful blue sphere, with clouds and water system all functioning to sustain life, to continents, dotted with the tiny efforts of human resourcefulness, to New York, to my neighborhood, where Jews in every house are preparing for Shabbat, making food and cleaning the house so that the families will have the Yishuv Da'at necessary to reflect on ideas of G's Malchut, to my own home, and to see myself washing dishes in the kitchen.
Now, I realize that all of the frustration and guilt has fallen away. My dishwashing fits right into the lawful scheme of things, and next time I am in this situation, I plan to try this thought experiment again and see what happens.
One point - this personal example does not employ the Mitzva tools, which is probably why I often end up wallowing instead of reflecting.
Rabbi Sacks,
I really like your application of the zoom technique to leolam yehei adam. I also like Yael's example.
However, I am still struggling with the concept of how focusing on the tov of bereishis affects the animal psyche. Why should my animal psyche care about the motion of the planets? And if it doesn't care, how will it be affected by my theoretical knowledge? Isn't it necessary to take the Mishlei approach of showing the mind the truth, and showing the animal psyche that living in accordance with the truth is good in terms of pleasure and pain? You can't motivate a kid to learn and keep mitzvos by telling him to think about the motion of the planets. You have to give him candy. How will the planets affect kids like us?
another "Zoom example"
As I start my day, I too feel the overwhelming weight of the "personal space/social - economic realm". Do I have three meetings today? Will I catch my train? Did I gain weight again? Did I wake my son to daven? What time am I getting home? What is my wife saying? Should I bring a lunch?
The vehicle of removal from "personal space domination" is davening. The most stark example is the Bircat Kriat Shema - The blessings before and after Shema.
Like the prophet Yechezkel [8:3] who Hashem in a prophetic sequence carries him by his hair to revisit the migdash and reveal its true corrupt state - the brachot are designed to rapidly shift us into a different world experience. This perspective is the world of the Creation and the Creator. You start to picture exploding nebula and the power of the sun shining on the blue globe of earth. You see Hashem guiding the world in a perfect mathematical precision. You leave the worldview of the Maaseh Braisit and are introduced to the Melachim who approach his Being - this is the Maaseh Merkava world. Even the highest beings are mere servants to his Plan. Apparently to truly be one who accepts Hashem's Malchut, you have to be grabbed by the hair and given a celestial ride out our social bubble to see the biggest "Google Earth" perspective.
Naturally, this requires us to have the Kavannah on the Brachot to facilitate the "lift off" to the big picture!
Matt,
Perhaps Rabbi Sacks is speaking not of a Mishlei perspective, but rather a Tehilim perspective. A Mishlei perspective would be to make a decision based on the world of consequences. A Tehilim perspective would be to make decisions based on systems. When one sees Hashems systems, and has knowledge of Hashem's will to the extent that he can, one wants to be a cog of that system. By seeing the world through the lenses of Bereashit, one can stabilize in their minds eye the system of creation and its purpose. Perhaps this view can transform his framework of doing things from the world of consequences to the world of Hashem's will as expressed in the system that he sees himself as a part of.
RW
Thank you Yael and R Rosenthal. These
personal applications are absolutely critical. As Aristotle said: things that are known by doing,must be done in order to be known.
The more personal examples that are done, the more we will know our Nefesh as it interacts with the world.
Your application of the pedagogical principles we were discussing at the wedding is very much nikkar in this post.
Thank you R Maroof. I am not sure I have maitained this zechira in my latest post.What do you think?
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